Normal is Not in Our Vocabulary

I raised an eyebrow and stared at her. Clearly she didn't understand my life and what had happened. First Katherine, then Elena. Two girls had messed me up so badly that I didn't even want to continue. The only girl that could have redeemed any of this was Lexi, because I would have gladly loved her in that sense, but she was dead. So that was a no go. Hell, I wasn't even one to have sex with someone without it meaning something and wanting them to be mine and only mine. "No, I won't actually. It happened twice, won't happen again." I said as I shook my head and relaxed back into the chair.

A glare crossed my face as I then said with venom in my voice, "You do not think that I know that. I know more about you Stefan Salvatore. More than you think I know. You were born in 1846. You have a brother named Damon Salvatore. you were turned buy Katherine Pierce, who Elena Gilbert looks just like. You killed your own father, Giuseppe Salvatore." I then stood up at that moment and crossed my arms at him. "In the present you were dating Elena Gilbert, but then she broke your heart after you became the ripper and she went after you elder brother. Now do you think that I don't know what happened?! You and I are not different Stefan Salvatore. I may be human, but I have been through hell and back." I then became shocked and stepped back. "I am so sorry. I just pinched a nerve of mine and I must of just stated what I mostly know...."

I just raised an eyebrow and crossed my arms as I laughed at her. Sure she knew things, but that was a total of about two-percent of my life. In essence it was really the only important things, but still. I didn't care - how she knew all this, I'd never know. There must be a book on tape out there about me or a documentary, because my life had to be in a public library for so many people to know about me. After she was done I just shook my head and made noses like tsk tsk tsk. With a small sigh I clapped my hands together and leaned forward. "Congratulations, you know about five-percent of my life, Erin. I don't do forgiveness anymore, so you take that as you want. No need to apologize though, just to clear things up." I said calmly as I felt my phone vibrate and I chose to ignore it, because it was probably Elena - and I didn't want to deal with her right now.

I could hear his phone go off. "I bet you that is Elena. She is in one of my classes and she talks about you and Damon non-stop. She should really learn how to control her voice volume." I then sat back down besides him. "You know, you are completely different than what I heard about." My eyes then slowly looked over at him that moment then. "What else happened to you Stefan?"

Hearing someone else talk about Elena bothered me, but at the same time I didn't care. It wasn't me to be the one to be concerned with who said what about Elena, not anymore. As she sat back down I just looked at her from the corner of my eye, trying to listen to what she had to say. I was different, no one actually knew what I was like except Damon. Behind closed doors we were fairly close, but even that was pushing it. "Sorry. I only share details like that to girls I have had sex with, Erin. And we have not had sex, nor will we ever have sex." I said as I dodged the question entirely, not really wanting to answer it. Everything was so trivial when it came to explaining my past and I wasn't exactly one for trying to explain myself - I just would rather assume to ignored something.

I looked at him and then crossed my arms a bit. "No worries. We are not having sex, for I am with someone else." I then looked at him still as I then said, "I know you do not care about my life at all. Let me just say this though, I want to help you for I know you had a messed up life in the past and now in the present.. I know you may not want my help at all, but oh freaking well. I am here so why the heck not." If he was going to be brutally honest, I would be brutally honest to him.

I just shook my head when she mentioned being with someone else. That was as faithful a relationship as a porn star would have. It wasn't like me to be mean, but hell - why not? She needed to know the truth seeing as she was so blind that she couldn't see it for herself. And she still wanted to help me which didn't make anything better. I hated the fact that she wished to help me, because I didn't want help - the person that helped me constantly was dead and I loved Lexi with all my heart and missed her. She was the Salvatore girl, the sister I never had but wished I had. "First of all, because the person that I relied on to help me is dead. Secondly, you are sleeping with someone that sleeps with anything that has a pulse. I just think I might have better judgment than you at this point in time. Sorry, but it's true." I said as I shrugged and leaned back into the bench and sighed.

Tears formed in my eyes as I then stood up and walked away from Stefan. "You are a dick!" I screamed as I then kept walking and cried greatly. How could he say that about the man I loved?! He didn't even know him! I wanted to scream, 'At least I have someone to love.' but I did not as I knew what is was like that someone left me for someone else. My heart kept breaking as I then started to run into the forest at that moment. I did not realize it at that moment but I left my MacBeth book back by Stefan.

I just shook my head and sighed. She clearly couldn't take it when it was dished back at her. But it was true. The entire town knew he was a sleazebag, so the fact that she didn't pay attention? Well I was just trying to give her some guidance. And she stormed off, crying. Well it wasn't what I was expecting but it seemed about right. She was in denial and well.. Yea, she even left her Shakespeare book behind. Shaking my head I grabbed it and blurred away from the bench. I caught up to her and spun her around, hand on her shoulder. "I was just telling you the truth. Here is your book by the way. I was simply trying to keep you from getting hurt.. By hurting you in the process." I said as I shook my head, clearly making no sense. I was trying to be a good friend as best as I could. It just so happened to be coming out incredibly awkward.

The tears kept rolling down my face as I then say, "He loves me Stefan. I know he does. He is leaving his other girlfriend to be with me. He even told me..." I kept crying as I then placed my hands over my face to hide the tears that were falling down my face at that moment. I really did need a good hug. I needed one of those hugs that comforted people and let them know that someone was going to be there to help them. Deep in my mind, the words of my brother's, Luke, ran through my mind. They were almost the same as Stefan's.

I sighed and pulled her into my arms and rubbed my hand through her hair. I hated this. I really did. Showing affection angered me and her crying like this was a bit ridiculous. But I was the cause of this, I did upset her. "I'll let you in on a little secret. If someone cheats on someone and you are the person they are doing it for... What makes you think they won't cheat on you? Once a cheater, always a cheater, Erin. I am just trying to keep you safe. Can't imagine that adorable face being upset all the time over some jerk." I said as I felt it was a little ironic, because she was sad - because of me, cause I had been a jerk. But it was true. She didn't deserve to be cheated on, because I knew it would come and deep down she knew that would come too.

I cried into his chest as I then whispered, "I do not know what to do Stefan. He is the only man to actually love me like this. What should I do? I do not want to end it at all with him right now, because I am in love." It was then that I realize that Stefan and I were not that different at all. I tried to stop crying at that moment then and sniffled at that very moment. I was also done crying.

My hand ran through her hair as my other arm was protectively around her waist. I wasn't sure what to tell her, because what she was feeling wasn't love. It was lust. And it was degusting to say the least. And he didn't love her either, it was just a lie to get in her underwear - I knew that and I couldn't understand why she couldn't see it. It was just like a girl to be doing something like that. They were always blinded by love because they wanted to believe. "Gonna sound like a jerk again, Erin. But you don't love him and he doesn't love you. It's just.. Lust. It may seem like it, but it isn't love." I said calmly as I kissed the top of her head. I hadn't tried to comfort someone in a very long time, so it was sort of weird for me.

Right then, I slowly started to look up at Stefan as he was being and sounding protective over me. My bottom lip quivered as I then think, "I-Is he really t-t-that bad Stefan?" My blue eyes wanted the truth as I then bit my lip and re-hid my face into his chest once more as I was still in shock that Stefan was holding me the way he was right now. My body was shaking a bit from all of the crying I was doing at that moment. My crying finally died down as I then just sniffled a bit at that moment.

I held her there tightly and even gave her a warm smile when she looked up at me. I was trying to be caring, but it just didn't work too much. Elena had really broken me in that department. I was doing okay though, this was just like a crash course in caring 101 for me. My fingers traced a circle on the small of her back as I sat there and thought for a moment. "Of course he is. I have no reason to lie to you, Erin. I just don't want you putting yourself out there to be with someone intimately and then be thrown away. You are better than that. You are too amazing for that." I said in the most reassuring way I possibly could, as I smiled - because she quit crying. Planting a few kisses along the top of her head, I just smiled and then rested my head against hers, so she could be more comfortable.

I do not know why but at that moment, a blush crossed my cheeks. My nickname around this town was either Miss Blush or Mrs. Huggable. I was such a loving person as cared about others. "You think I am to amazing for him?" I sniffled some more and looked up at Stefan as he held me in his arms still. My eyes were red a bit from all the crying I have done just a couple of minutes at that moment.

I nodded and looked down at her as blood began to rush to her cheeks. It was true. Someone like him didn't deserve a girl like this. Sure she had a great personality and was interesting, but she was beautiful in so many ways that it was a bit intimidating. Body, mind, soul. This girl had everything going for her. "I wouldn't have said it if it were not the truth, Erin. Just forget about him and move on." I said as I gave her a smile and kept my arm around her waist, my other hand cupping her face.

I closed my eyes as I kept blushing from his touch. My heart was racing a bit as I then bit my lip. I had no clue what to do as I was in this situation with Stefan Salvatore. Just a mere couple of minutes ago I could careless what he was doing, but now I did care what he was going to do. I then slowly opened my eyes as I looked into his green eyes. "Do you really think so Stefan?" I whispered as I then sniffled a bit and wiped my eyes to stop them from going more red from all of the crying. Curse crying.

I nodded and watched her seem to warm up to me. It was interesting. I was happy though, because she seemed to become less upset with every passing second. Despite the fact that she was still crying, I could see her eyes sparkling at everything I said behind the liquid. I brushed a few tears away and rubbed her cheek tenderly as I offered her a smile. "I know so, Erin. I could compel you to forget him if you would want it to be easier... You know. I hate compulsion but if it would help you.." I said with an offer that I really never wanted to use for anyone, but I did. Erin was the only person I would ever offer that too, mark my words.

In a split moment I thought about it, but then I remembered my vervain necklace. I closed my eyes before I answered him and looked up into his eyes. "You know what Stefan, you may call me crazy, but I think that I should in fact keep my memory of what happened. I need to learn from my past and keep it in mind. I need to know what not to do anymore incase it does not work out like I want it to." I then touch his cheek, hesitantly, as I then smile up at him. "Thank you though for offering for taking away my pain for me. You are truly one amazing man and never deny it...please never deny it Stefan."

She was denying it, which made me happy - yet sad at the same time. I wanted to help her and she needed help but she felt like she was strong enough to brave it on her own. That was admirable. She touched my cheek and normally I would have broken her arm but I just smiled and let her touch my cheek. It felt oddly comforting, but still - I was just allowing it. "I won't deny it. But what happened? A minute ago you called me a dick and now you look like you could just kiss me. Are you bipolar?" I asked teasingly, trying to lighten the mood as I stared down into her gorgeous, sapphire eyes.

I sighed as I then looked down and said, "Everything you are doing for me with this whole situation means a lot. A lot of people would of just let me go and suffer, but you warned me and even offered to him." My hand stayed on his cheek as I then looked up at the vampire again. I then giggle a bit as he asked me if I was bipolar. A very small smile crossed my lips as I then replied, "And I promise you I am not bipolar at all. I was tested." I joked right back with him as my small smile stayed on my lips right then.

I nodded and smiled slightly as I just watched her, ignoring her words slightly - but smiling from them at the same time. "Well I am just being a friend." I admitted honestly as I felt her hand still on my face, which made me fairly happy. I laughed and shook my head slightly, keeping her hand on my face as she said she wasn't bipolar. "Just making sure, Erin." I said calmly as I kissed her wrist gently, hoping it would make her that much more comfortable around me so she could cut loose and be herself and not a slave to the emotions she was suffering from.

I blinked and blushed a bit as I then said, "Stefan...." It was a soft whisper as I looked up at him. He kissed my wrist and I had no idea why. And I had no idea why I was blushing so much at that moment. It was my nickname I know, but Stefan just made me blush so much. Why was this happening? My heart and mind were both so confused about this whole situation. I was trying to stop thinking about it before I would get a head ache and pass out. That is what usually happened to me after I get worked up a bit.

I stared down at her and gave her a warm smile. "What? Am I not allowed to kiss you anywhere?" I asked with a smile as I ran my hand through her hair affectionately.