Love Bites {Jeremy}

Think. Think. Think. I have had nothing but time to think. Because of my turning, I've been on edge. Not in a good way, but bad. My mind goes to Sophia and Jeremy. They are my closet human friends. I love them like family. I love Jeremy so much, but my mind goes to my dreams. Where he dies of Ann animal attack. I look at myself and I am covered in blood, his blood.

I drove here. I am covered head to toe in clothing. I still needs stone to protect me from the sun. I raced up to the door. I knocked on it hoping he would answer.

I was sitting in the living room watching tv when I heard a knock on the door. I tried to lean over the couch to see who it was but I couldn't so I got up and walked over to the door, stretching a bit. I opened the door to find Elizabeth, instantly I felt my jaw drop. I hadn't seen her since the night of the crash, I had suspected she had turned but I didn't know until now. That meant she must have completed the transformation..
"Hey.." was all I could think to say at the moment. I didn't know what to say, I was happy she wasn't dead, but now I was back to being the only human in this town again.

I was about to leave until the door opened. Thank god it was Jeremy. I wanted to hug him, but I was scared. I kept still and looked up at him. "Hey..," this was the first time I had seen him since the crash a few nights again. I felt high, higher than I was when I was human when we were together. He look like he normally did. Scruffy hair, tall and ready to jump at danger if it showed its face.

"Can I come in? I want to um.. Talk to you." if you could call it that.

I was just staring at her, happy to see her, when I realized she needed to be invited in I snapped out of the daze I was in. "Yeah, sorry, come in." I fully opened the door and stood back for her to come in. "So how are you?"

I half smillied as I walked in. I was glad to know I couldn't be slowed down by an invisible barrier. Well at least for this house. I knew Elena had to sign the deed for my home now. I took off my sunglasses as I found a dark corner to stand in. "I'm not myself Jer. I can't controll myself. Jordan, that guy who held me at the crash, he is teaching me. And... Jer, I don't want you hurt. I was already a murder when I was human. I have already killed other innocent people. I don't want you to see me like this. The monster I always was." I was able to walk over to him. I wanted to show him that he didn't really have to fear me. I hugged him. I didn't want to let go.

I hugged her back, she felt different than before, I'd have to get used to it. "I know you're different and everything's changed, but you'll get used to it. And none of those people were your fault, you can't think that way. It's going to be alright." I said giving her a kiss on the cheek. She felt cold, it reminded me of Anna.

Even he smelled different. His scent reminded me of cool summer nights at a baseball game. I could feel my face as it began to turn. My fangs grew as I slightly cocked my head back and broke the skin on his neck. I started drinking his blood. My hood fell back and I could feel my skin burning. I stopped and ran back to the corner. I couldn't believe what I did. I drank some of his blood. There was noway on Earth I could forgive myself. I certainly won't forget.

It was like I could feel the change in the air. One minute I was trying to comfort her and the next she was across the room, it all happened too fast. I felt a sharp pain in my neck and could feel blood dripping down it. I pressed my fingers against the bitemark to stop the bleeding and I looked at Liz. This wasn't the girl I knew. "Liz?" I asked,hoping the Elizabeth I knew would show up behind those dark eyes.

Why? Why him? Why me? I couldn't be here like this with him. "Don't come any closer." I covered my nose even though the sweet aroma of his blood penetrated my fingers to fill my nose. He can't be hurt. Not by me. Both vicki and Anna were vampires, they were his girlfriends, they ate dead. I won't be either.

"Untill I can feel comfortable around you Jeremy, we can't be together. It's for your safety, I won't put you in any danger. I don't want to kill you." these were my true feelings. I wanted nothing more than to be here with him, human. I can't believe this happened to me, and to him. He is a ciliviallian caught in the crossfire of a war and I am a martyr trying to save him. I know this was bad. "I don't care if you want to see anyone else, but right now I can't live and let you be in danger when it's just us." I sat coward in my dark corner.

I had a feeling this was coming and I couldn't blane her. "I understand, but but I'm going to be here for you no matter what." I walked over to where she was to show I wasn't scared. "It's not going to be any easier if youre alone. I understand if you can't be around me, but I'll be here for you."

I could feel my face change as he scooted closer. I couldn't help myself. "I said Stay Away!" I yelled as I moved quickly to a different corner. "You can't help me. You can't be with me!" I kept a straight face as my insides yelled at me to run and cry. And can't hurt him like this, this was bad. I knew I shouldn't have came.

I stood on the opposite side of the room again after she yelled at me and moved. I looked at her, I wanted to think she was still the same Liz that I knew, but I knew different. It seemed our days were over. I didn't know what to say to her, she didn't want my help.
"I won't be in your life if you don't want me to Liz." I said. This whole relationship was just a trial anyways, but I still felt the numbness spread throughout my body. Once again I was alone in this messed up world.

No! This isn't how I ever wanted it. This was wrong. I screwed up his life by my accidental turning. Why was he always on the reviving end of bad news? "Of course I want you in my life but I want you safe. I can't be around you, at least right now." I saw his bleeding neck. I raced into the kitchen and got a glass and knife. I cut my wrist and flexed my musscles to let the blood flow into it. After enough came out I walked to him and handed it to him. "I love you Jer. Don't get me wrong, I just don't want your screwed up life to be affected by mine right now." I looked down as I walked to the door.

I shook my head as she spoke. "I know you're stronger than this Liz. I understand you need to...learn the ropes, but I know you will be able to control yourself. You were the one good thing going for me, I think either way my lifes going to be affected by you." I looked at the glass of blood she handed me, it reminded me of the time when Anna gave me her blood. I was a different person back then and was stupid. I couldn't believe I ever wanted to be a vampire at one point, which made me think "Why did you have blood in your system?" I asked her, looking up at her.