She won't kill me...I hope

"Well just think we are in the same screwed up supernatural boat." I chuckled trying to lighten up Tyler's mood. I moved closer to Tyler. I lightly squeezed his arm and then I nudged him with my shoulder. "Lighten up or i'm going to push you out of bed! We are both screwed and can't change the past. But I swear if you don't get happy you're going to be kissing the floor." I said in a serious tone.

I laughed and turned my head to look at Ravyn. "And here just a second ago you were crying and I was comforting you. You'd think I'd get some returned." I said.

I laughed at him. "Well I did get you to laugh!" I got on my knee's and lean over Tyler. I placed my hands on his shoulders and gave him a little shake so he'd look at me. "Excuse me but my parenting skills are a little rusty. Shall I call your mother to come comfort you?" I questioned jokingly. "Just remember that you'll have to explain why there's a... What did you call me? Oh yes, why there's a cougar in your bed." I said trying to keep a straight face, but I couldn't so I laughed.

I laughed with Ravyn. "You'd only be a cougar if you and I were actually dating but since were not your just the older woman thats in my bed." I said smilling at her. I liked how easy it was to talk to her.

I leaned in and whispered into Tyler's ear. "She won't know that!" I said playfully as i nibbled on his ear lightly. "Lets just say I can be very convincing." I leaned back looking at him the smirk never leaving my lips.

While I listend to Ravyn she once again began her favorite game of teasing me by nibbling on my ear. "So you want my mom to think were dating?" I asked looking up at her with that sassy smirk she had on.

I chuckled at him. "The look on your mother's face would be priceless. Especially if she knew I was almost a century old." I leaned back over to Tyler's ear. "I wouldn't want her to think it was true if it isn't." I whispered and let go of his shoulders and laid back on my side.

I looked at Ravyn. "Well I think we pretty much discussed nothing is going to happen with us since we both have other people in our lives. Plus now that I know your 26, I'm not sure now." I told her half joking and half serious. I mean I had huge attraction to Ravyn but I learned the hard way not to hook up with older women.

I raised an eyebrow at him. "You are such a buzz kill!" I said lightly pushing him. "Yes always someone else to screw everything up." I said humorlessly. "So what i'm forever stuck at the age of 26. What would you prefer be being stuck at the age of 17?" I said as I quickly sat up. I grabbed the bottle I set on the table and took a giant gulp. I set it back on the table and didn't lay back down. I didn't know what was wrong with me but Tyler's words stung.

I sighed, shouldn't have never opened my mouth. "Its not like that Ravyn, your hot and all but I had some serious issues with older women that is not worth repeating." I said sitting up on my bed. What is up with me saying the wrong things today?

"Categorizing every older woman as the same thing, is not a smart idea." I said glancing back at him. "Woman now a days have hardly been taught matters." I said knowing my eyes were now dark. "This is exactly why I don't let people near me!" I hissed out. "Maybe I should just follow Bekah's example and turn everything off." I said in a deathly tone, knowing I wouldn't fell any emotions. I wouldn't give a damn about hurting people I once cared about. How did I let this damn hybrid close? I thought to myself.

I looked at Ravyn. "No no hell no. Don't listen to Rebekah." I said and then sighed heavily. "Ray look, you know I have an attraction to you its just that its hard because you have a thing with Damon and I'm not looking to have a fight with him and the whole older woman thing its just I kissed my friends mom and that was not the greatest idea I had." I told her. I didn't want Ravyn to shut herself away from me, I cared about her and I don't want to see her lose her humanity.

I laughed. "Damon! Your worried about Damon." I shook my head. "I can throw him like a rag doll." I took another sip. "Hmm... No wonder you don't like other woman. I suppose your friend tried to kill you for that!" I sighed. "And Damon seems to be obsessed with Miss Gilbert." I muttered under my breath.

I laughed at her comment about Damon. "I'm not worried about him, I just don't want to deal with him." he was a huge pain and everytime I was around him he always makes comments about killing me. "And he didn't try to kill me, we got into a fight and we almost stopped being best friends." I said. I know him and I aren't as close now but were both still around so its okay with me. "Damon and Stefan will always be obessed with Elena, how she puts up with it amazes me but just FYI, Damon is missing out on an amazing person." I said looking Ravyn in the eye.

"Damn you weren't supposed to hear that!" I rolled my eyes at myself. I took another sip and set the bottle down on the table. I leaned back onto the bed so my head was on the pillows. "Sometimes I just think that turning it off would be better. I just don't want to lose myself." I let out a heavy sigh and closed my eyes. "It will always be the Petrova doppelganger."

I sighed and leaned back on the headboard. "You'll only lose yourself if you do turn it off. I can turn off myself and be the loyal Hybrid Klaus wants me to be but I'm not because thats not who I am. I'm a leader not a follower." I said letting the old Tyler show up. I mean I don't follow Klaus cause of Caroline and Mason helped me calm down a little bit but honestly alot of it was my old self was telling me I wasn't the type of person to get on my knees and listen to you.

"Feisty! I like it, and trust me no one wants to follow Klaus." I said in a serious tone. "Just don't tell him I said that." I told him jokingly as I started to laugh. "I tried turning it off about 50 years ago and lets just say it turned out badly." I said snuggling into the pillows to get more comfortable. "And the time before that was about 90 years after I was turned that one was worse."

"Well there you go, its fate or whatever you wanna call it, telling you that you don't need to turn off your emotions." I said. I don't think turning off your humanity or whatever was a good thing. Sometimes I heard Elena talking about it with Caroline and Bonnie saying Stefan and Damon had issues with it, if they want to feel human again then they should just keep there humanity on. That simple, but for me that isn't a problem because I don't even know how to do it.

I looked over at Tyler. "Whatever you do don't ever turn it off!" I stated seriously. I regretted turning it off both times. "You'll end up doing things you never wanted to do. It makes your whole world come crashing down hard." I told him as I lightly placed my hand on his arm.

"I don't and I don't want to. I mean its cool being the first succesful Hybrid but then it also sucks since my entire life was ruined." I said feeling Ray's hand on my arm. I listend as Ray said turning off your humanity doesn't end well. "Thats good then because I don't plan on doing it anyway. First off I don't really know how, second don't really want to."I told Ravyn honestly. I could tell it wasn't something she wanted to go back to either.

"So lets change the subject!" I said looking up at the ceiling. "So what do you want to do?" I said glancing over at Tyler. I didn't want to keep talking about gloomy subjects. I'd rather have some fun then live in the dreary past. Or talk about how I killed people when I turned my emotions off. It killed me when I managed to turn them back on.

I chuckled. "I don't know, not much to do in a small town." I shrugged. I was glad we were changing the subject, it was getting kinda sad. "We could drink ourselves into oblivion?" I suggested. Its been awhile since I've been completely wasted.

I chuckled lightly. "That's always the downfall of small towns. Nothing fun to do." I removed my hand from Tyler's arm and turned onto my side. "Getting drunk sound very good to me." I rolled off the bed and landed on my feet. I walked over to the door, and turned to Tyler. "I'll be right back." I said then quickly sped out of the house to my car. I gently grabbed my bag that held my alcohol. I quickly sped through the house and stopped at Tyler's doorway. I leaned against it and pulled one of the bottles out of my bag. I held it up to show him. "I brought the good stuff." I brought the expensive good tasting stuff.

"Nice." I smiled getting off my bed. Ravyn was quick so before I had a chance to reply or even know where she was going shes was here an back in seconds. I walked over to her and grabbed the bottle from her hands. "Lets try this again but with the good glasses. Follow me." I told Ravyn as I walked out of my room.

I smirked as Tyler came over to me and took the bottle I was holding. "Yes lead the way!" I said wiggling my eyebrows. "Enjoy being leader while you can." I let out a little chuckle and lightly poked him in the back when he walked in front of me.