Sophia's Journal

It's been 2 years 7 months and 5 day since I've been released from the bad place. My mother and father are fighting again so I moved in with my grandmother. She seems to kept me calm and not psychotic like I was. I never want to go back to the bad place again. I have friends like Elizabeth to keep me sane. I still talk to my grandpa at the cemetary but everybody says that it's normal to talk to your dead family. I hate Elizabeth's uncle though. He really gets on my nerves. Really don't want to run into him if I ever go insane again. I meet another person that seems okay to hang out with. Her names Katherine. She's Elena vampire ancestor and doppleganger. She is a bit malevolent. Anyways maybe next time I'll have something better to report

Latley I feel myself slipping. It's as if I have no control of myself anymore. My other side is trying its best to come out. I was at the bar with Katherine. I was drinking a few drinks and talking when suddenly it felt as if I wasn't me anymore. I was asking questions and saying stuff that I normallly wouldn't say. I think my mind is changing back to its mental state. I'm hearing the voices again, saying they want me back. They want to take me away. I have vivid dreams at night making me wake up in the middle of the night screaming. Grandmother just tries to calm me down and get me back to bed. She's seen this before with her sister. She knows how to take care of me. Its get harder to resist my weakness and just go for it. Maria wants to come out and play but I must stay strong and resist. Maria is a harlet that will do everything she can to ruin my life. She's my alter ego.

She thinks she so safe because she has these walls to keep me away. Sophia is right about one thing. I am a harlet I will sleep with many guys all at once. I have no consequences and no rules. Maria is out and ready to have some fun

Maria here. I have no clue why I'm writing in her jornal but I think I should. I mean come on. I am part of her life and she never talks about me. Today is the first day I'm out. Thank god her friend died or i would have been forever in limbo waiting for a chance to be free. I've had fun today. Beat two messerible man at pool and got my drink on. I love my new life much better thant being a boring goody two shoes that Sophia is.